April 22, 2020…that was the date of my last blog post. So much has happened between then and now it’s almost too much to mention. So many huge changes that have impacted my life in a way so big it’s hard to imagine.
I left my job and went to work for another mechanical contractor in Carrollton…
I graduated college and received my degree…
We sold our house in Villa Rica and moved down the road to Temple, next door to Steph’s parents….
I bought a VW Bug…
I’m no longer working with youth at our church…
Mom answered the call when God called her home…
All of these have impacted me in a way that’s hard to believe. I no longer have to focus my writing on school papers. I now longer have to worry if I am going to get paid on time. I am able to help Steph take care of her parents.
9 PM at night will always be hard for me as that’s when I called mom almost every night.
Last year I had a great ministry working with the middle school youth at our church and now that is gone. My desire to work with youth and have a place to serve has been replaced by feelings that I am struggling with to overcome.
To say that the past few years have been full up really highs and really lows would be the understatement of the day.
I have sought counsel from the wisest, Godly people that I know starting with Stephanie, and then others with the same, simple message…. I am struggling.
No one person had the right answer, but all have the same message. I have to deal with these feelings first and then seek God with everything that I have.
Jeremiah 29:13 ” You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart.”
I am seeking. I am searching. I am trying to claw my way back to find God where I left Him.
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