First things first, thank you Karen. Your help on awol4christ made what I thought was my best site, even better. Your ideas and suggestions blew me away, even though you didn’t like the gray ahaha. Your are the BOMB in my book.
What you didn’t realize, is that God was using you. He used you to make changes to the site to make it better. He knew I would listen to you. I can make a site look like anything but coming up with what it should look like is your strength. You are definitely in the wrong field my dear.
Secondly, my little project, has gone as far as I can take it. I am waiting on Dwayne now for pics of him and Loren and contact info. Laurie told me they are going to show it to the youth on Wednesday night. Then we will see how well it goes off. Regardless, I used the talents and resources that God has blessed me with, to create something that I am REALLY proud of. If it reaches one person, gets one person to a church service, then praise God. It was worth it.
This week, has just been awful. Starting Sunday afternoon, it has steamrolled out of control wide open downhill into the abyss.
First, I dropped my bike while it was parked and broke the clutch lever and scratched up the fairings. Then Monday was a hell all in itself. I just could feel myself slipping down.
So I called in the prayer warriors and screamed HELP!!! Kari is such an awesome gift from God in my life. She prayed for me right there on the phone which was incredible. I called Dwayne right afterwards and everthing Kari said, Dwayne almost repeated. That picked me up a little bit but by Tuesday morning, it was on again.
Tuesday started out with the chaos of voting. I got to the polls about 6:30 and was about #60+ in line. By the time I went in to vote there were probably about 300+ behind me. It took me an hour to vote and seemed to take about 3 weeks to get to the office. Later that day I had to go to another company to show them the software we use. I chose to go home a back route to go through Cumming in case I got in touch with any of the guys there for maybe dinner or a visit. None. I got in touch with only Danny who was on the golf course. After a 4 hour drive home, sitting for an hour and a half on a back country road near Cartersville, I was home. Totally exhausted but home.
Wednesday was extremely busy and then I had to go to the home owners association meeting. Total waste of 2 and a half hours. This week I have been just absolutely covered up. Then Tanya calls me and we argue and debate for about 30 minutes over garbage. Over absolutely nothing of importance. Another complete waste of my time.
Today is a new day. I came in, relaxed, stress free. Sat down in my chair, opened the sale paper for Micro Center, found all kinds of things I would like to buy, but cant right now. Then I realized that I had time to read my devotional book, (something I haven’t done in about a week. Hmmmmm I see a solution developing here.) It was about promises and how a rainbow is a reminder of God’s promise to us to not ever destroy the world by flood again.
I have made a promise, a deal, a covenant, whatever you want to call it to not be in a relationship, not date, not be with anyone until the first of the year. Satan has thrown everything he can at me. I am totally under attack. I haven’t talked to Eileen in years and now she continually calls me. Holley talks to me in instant messenger about every other day, and Tiff and I talk about every day still. Kris has been trying to fix me up with her sis in law Pam.
So basically I have spent a LOT of time talking to women that would definitely cause me to break my deal with God.
Now the big picture is coming in to play.
Me being at home with nothing to do, easily puts me into situations that could break the deal with me and God. Sunday, I asked the guys in small group to pray for me because I fall into bad relationships so easy. God has answered that prayer. He has kept me busy and out of the house were I put myself into those situations.
I might not have understood his solution, and may not agree with it, but I definitely see it. So today, once again, I will pick myself up dust myself off and start again. Tonight, by MY choice, I am going to the Exchange, and who knows, it might just be exactly what I need.
Sunday, as usual. Westridge music…off the charts. I went to the 10:00 service as I couldnt get motivated to go to the early service. What a difference. The crowd is bigger. They are more into the service. I just couldnt believe the difference.
Afterwards, I went to the men’s small group and it was incredible. We basically turned it into a testimony share time and we all told our story about when we were saved. Then we broke up into small groups to pray for each other. Then as I was outside about to leave, Matt, one of the guys there, came up and asked me about my bike. We got to talking and he told me that I really bring a lot to the group. I told him I felt awkward about it at first being the old guy in the club, but he said that didnt matter. I told him I would see him Thursday night at the exchange. It really made me feel like for a change I fit in. Plus another one of the guys told me I should hang out with them. I am going to go to his work on Thursday for lunch. Should be interesting…..
For a change, I feel like I belong. Ain’t it great!
I heard something at small group yesterday that just caught my attention.
“How did you live the dash?”
Explanation: John Doe, January 1, 1970 – January 10, 2004. His entire life is the dash on his headstone between his birthdate and the day he died.
The question came up from the discussion at small group. We watched a DVD by Bruce Wilkinson, (author of the Prayer of Jabez and Secrets of the Vine) talking about the parable of the talents. To one servant, he gave 5, to another he gave 2 and to the last he gave one. The servant with 5 doubled it to 10. The servant with 2 doubled it to 4. The servant with only 1, buried it, did nothing with it. The king praised both of the servants who did something with their talents and rewarded them both equally. But the servant that buried the one talent had it taken from him.
Sometimes I feel like the servant with only one talent. Not because I would bury my talent, but because often I feel like I am not using the talents that God has given me. Not because I don’t want to, but because I don’t know what God wants me to do.
I know for now, He wants me to work on being the example of Him abiding in me. I have worked very hard the past week trying to eliminate cursing, (a lot of success there I barely curse at all now, still work to do) I am trying to be a better all around person trying to eliminate the things in my life that make me fall. I have started playing guitar again and forgot how much I enjoy it, even though Im not even close to being good at it lol.
When I get to heaven, and God asks me what have I done with my life for Him, I don’t want to have any regrets because of things I haven’t done.
I’m ready God when You are.